Why?
I wish I knew. Because then I could stop myself from doing it! It’s freaking embarrassing!
The seminar went well. I learned a lot. I wish I could say that Porter & I did a lot. But once again, all our time was spent on fixing things that we should already have perfected by now.
And the reason we continue to need to work on these things?
Well, I think it’s because Porter is too stubborn. But in reality, I’m too soft. Or I let too many little things slide until they are a big heap of crap that we can no longer work around :)
Every time we move forward, we find even more holes in our foundation.
Is it the curse of a newcomer to herding? Yes.
Will I do better with my next dog? Yes.
Will my next dog have as much natural talent as Porter? I don’t know.
I think that’s what makes it even harder (and emotional) on me – knowing how good Porter is, and the fact that he would absolutely shine with anyone else but me.
But I’m going to do this, damn it! And eventually, maybe, I’ll finally get it right :)
